December 2009
68 posts
Important people in my 2009
purexed:
well this has been quite the interesting year. it’s had it’s ups and downs. here’s a list of people who were really important and shaped how my year was in 2009 (excluding family).
Taylor Page
Nicole Holm
Brigid Angelini
Spencer Weintraub
Andrew Morrone
Kellylouise Delaney
Kelly Martin
Kaitlyn McKenna
Andrew Berghorn
Cristian Mendoza
Joey Kuchinskas
...
Dear 2009,
Well you brought good and bad as every year must. You gave me a great relationship, possibly the first relationship I felt was real, and I’ll never forget it. You gave me a shit load of confidence in myself and at one point made me feel like I was beautiful. Then you tore it away. Everything I had and more. You left me with less self esteem then I started with and now I’m a mess...
Nothings going right and everythings a mess and no...
I’ve realized most of my time is spent day dreaming. I’d rather stay in and just imagine things going my way then go out and be disapointed. I’m becoming completely anti social and I only go out if I’m going to be with a small group of people. I don’t get whats going on with me. I’m also going to a sweet sixteen tonight which would be a large gathering =/ but...
As you could have guessed
Neverrrr got that mistletoe kiss =/
New Years eve kiss?
The odds are against me on that one
I am very happy
With the fact that we keep conviniently missing each other. Lets keep doing that. Thats not even sarcastic. =)
if-he-only-knew:
sheenassemi:
My dad sounds like he’s dying behind me, but he’s not, he’s just snoring obnoxiously. ANYWAYS. I wish my room would redo itself. I threw out so much stuff which makes me really happy though, but now everything looks sorta empty. I hate that feeling. Walking into my room feeling like I’m moving. Idk what I’m saying. I’m so sleep deprived and my minds all over the...
so today...
purexed:
was fucking beautiful. the weather was amazing. i woke up then went driving for the first stime! i’m actually not that bad believe it or not. then i went for a run on the boardwalk. then me and dad had to sprint home so i could get my shit and make the train. which didn’t even end up matter because some little bitch named taylor <3 has no idea about time so we took another train half...
Don't push me
You are just not doing well in this conversation. You complain about how we don’t talk blah blah blah. So I try to be nice keep conversation going and you just push on subjects that I just said I don’t want to talk about. That’s literally pushing me away. Then you continue to complain how I don’t tell you anything. Really the only people I tell anything to is Austin Katie...
Stupid Bitch
I hope he fucking regects your ass for all the stupid mind games you’ve played with him. Why now huh? What did it take for you to become realistic? But most importantly WHY WASN’T HE GOOD ENOUGH BEFORE?!?!? Now that someone new is paying attention to him now you feel the need to mark your territory? And realizing its not yours to mark you have to say something to keep him hanging now...
dreamss
if-he-only-knew:
Have you ever had you dreams crushed? Becuase i have …. NO HOUSE PARTY TOMORROW NIGHT ANYMORE BECAUSE SARAH CANT GOO! Uhhh it was going to bring me and you closer :(
DISLIKE!!!!
Dear Anthony
I think you just click like on every post that comes up
in other news I suck at x-box
“Taylor you died in a Wall-e game thats pathetic”
-Liddle Brudder
Still not feelin Christmas
Well I’m not confused anymore. What I need and what I want are finally the same thing. I want to be alone till college. I’ve realized its the best thing for me and I’m finally ok with that. I’m ok with being single and actually would prefer to be. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. It’s really nice.
I’m really quite done with this year...
Chickening out?
Sure does look that way
Taylor's Christmas Blog
So Christmas eve was…interesting… But I survived through everyone drunk and on whatever trips they were taking. None of that is important any way. What is important is tomorrow. I’m spending it with Anthony and Katie<3 We’ve all been through alot since we spent last Christmas together. I forgot what happened last Christmas but dad said something really mean to me and I...
So as a tradition me Danielle and Anthony always exchange the presents we got for each other on Christmas eve. In conclusion I now have more Wall e toys and a crazy cat lady action figure. I love my life<3
“Taylor we need to go girl hunting.. I think I’m a lesbian lmao”
I fucking love her<3
Taylor Page.
sheenassemi:
HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHA<333333333
Please be make believe.
alejandraaa:
Counting down the hours is making me sick. Like yeah, it’s my dog? And some poeple don’t give a shit, but he’s my baby. Like my little brother. How would you feel if you have less than four hours left with a family member.
I felt the same way about my cat<3333 I’m here if you need anything.
Did I really say that? I don’t regret saying that it’s the truth. I just can’t believe I did.
From this point on things will change for the...
What the fuck. Nothing I do can ever be good enough for you. This house is a broken place. That’s why no one wants to stay here. No one can stand your needy petty bull shit. I’d rather walk the streets alone at night then spend time here. Then you go and try to make me feel bad for you. Oh I’m SOOOOO sorry that you have a bunch of teenagers. DEAL WITH IT. Then you wonder why I...
study hall
youaremysunshinee:
hi taylor. respond to this when you’re done typing your post. kay thanks i love you bye.
heh…hey come watch youtube videos with me
I don't take classes
Seriously? I’m pretty sure you told more people then I ever did. You contributed to our downfall just as much as I did. It’s over (thank God) move on and get over it. I wish you were as nice as your sisters are. You’re not who I thought you were at all. I’m so glad I realized this. I legit don’t care if I ever see you again. I can honestly say that now. I won’t...
I'll still be here in the morning
Things always seem better when I wake up. I’m sure tonight it’ll be back to the way it was. But for now today is going pretty well.
He got through every wall, But I've never felt...
I honestly don’t know what I’d be doing right now without Austin. Oh wait yes I do. I’d be crying alone in my room. Austin puts up with my bull shit so well. Even if it means fighting with his dad just to stay on the phone for 5 more minutes to make sure I’m ok. Baby I love you so much<33
2:22 am hope you're sound asleep
sheenassemi:
taylortellsall:
Uhhh, Taylor. This sorta ruins what we were aiming for.. just putting that out there.
AND DID YOU SEE ALL THAT SNOW! OMGSH! I wish I was coming over for that snowball fight you’re having. :[
haha yea it does =( I was in a bad mood last night. But I totally forgot about my torn ACL… so I probably won’t be participating too much cause westbury snowball...
UPDATE: The Search for Emily Egan
This girl is probably totally freaked out by this.
Any way I was talking to Anthony Corcoran And asked if he knew who she was. He responded with: “yea shes in my spanish class. Wait Taylor she’s in band.” Sure enough he pointed her out at the band concert. So shes been in my class this entire time. And I just didn’t know who she was…. cause I’m oblivious to...
“So baby raise a glass to mend
All the broken hearts
Of all my wrecked up...”
– Lady Gaga
Marionette
Push, Pull
Use me as you will
Up, Down
Then everything is still
Strings connect all over
None of them know
They’re not the only one’s
Who are running this show
Arm up, Sit down
I do as you command
I don’t know the script
But the game I understand
Come here, Go away
Hot then cold
All of you are the same
This is starting to get old
Denied, Beg for more
Is this...
Taylor: Was ******* ****** always a bitch? She gave me the dirtiest look at the christmas concert like what the fuck you look like a rat
Danielle: LOL thats just how her face looks 100% of the time no worries.
LOVE HER<333
sheenassemi:
taylortellsall:
sheenassemi:
taylortellsall:
sheenassemi:
Taylor, I miss you. If I wasn’t so itchy I would walk ten feet to where you are sitting but.. this bite is actually very itchy. And I would text you more but you just came in here and yelled at me for texting you. Then you raped me and claimed you love me. But I don’t believe it. Thanks. You’re the greatest.
Sheena,...
The search for Emily Egan
WARNING: this will be my creepiest post yet
So I may or may not have met this girl at a point (cause when do I ever remember meeting people, I just talk to everyone.) Any way, this girl has the coolest name ever. And we’re friends on facebook some how. (I also just add everyone on there) So this post is mostly pointless. Just to say that I find this girl intriguing just cause her name is...
sheenassemi:
taylortellsall:
sheenassemi:
Taylor, I miss you. If I wasn’t so itchy I would walk ten feet to where you are sitting but.. this bite is actually very itchy. And I would text you more but you just came in here and yelled at me for texting you. Then you raped me and claimed you love me. But I don’t believe it. Thanks. You’re the greatest.
Sheena, you should have just went to the...
sheenassemi:
Taylor, I miss you. If I wasn’t so itchy I would walk ten feet to where you are sitting but.. this bite is actually very itchy. And I would text you more but you just came in here and yelled at me for texting you. Then you raped me and claimed you love me. But I don’t believe it. Thanks. You’re the greatest.
Sheena, you should have just went to the nurse and gotten itchy cream....
Did that really just happen?!?!?!
It did…
Whoa
ALSOOOO
Has Kelsey Barrow sent everyone else an invite to prom? Cause I’m trying to decide if its an invitation to prom in general or to be her date. I mean we don’t know each other on that level. But I don’t see anyone else jumpin to take me. I Accept!
This is obviously a joke…. Please don’t take it seriously haha
A few thoughts
Today was normal. As defined by my new definition of normal. It had its highs it had its lows its confusion its back and forth. It also had detention which suckeddddd. But it gave me time to day dream a bit. Plan out my weekend. Austin and I are going Christmas shopping and going to visit kitties in a pet shelter on Friday<3 I’m so excited. Mom was yelling at me not to bring home a cat...
too many depressing posts
The other day Liddle Brudder asked me:
“why don’t you hang out with your friends anymore?”
And I realized hes right. Theres only a few people I really hang out with outside of school. I don’t like hanging in groups any more. And I say “yea we’ll hang out soon” but I never follow though. I mean when I say it I have every intention to follow through....
Dear Sheena Assemi
You confuse the shit out of me since I don’t know if your ever serious or not. But that’s ok cause in return I piss you the fuck off<333. Its a cute little relationship we have. Make my life easier and just date me? YESS that is me asking you out. But we both know you won’t take me seriously. I love you alot. I’m gonna go figure out how to connect the chart since you...
And I swear that you don't have to go
alejandraaa:
This weekend was one of my best. Friday, Christopher came home with me on the bus, which was disgustingly packed. We stayed at my house for a little before my uncle picked us up to hang out… awkward. And then we got back home and we wrestled, and cuddled, and hung out, and it was too much fun. Saturday I woke up tired and cranky and sick and then Emily and Chris picked me up. When I...
So I've Decided
There’s really one thing I really want for Christmas this year. I REALLY want to be kissed under a mistletoe. I don’t care who it is (I mean I’d prefer for it to mean something but beggars can’t be choosers) as long as it’s not a guy. (sorry Austin<3) I just really want one of those completely adorable kisses. So yea just throwwwwinnnnn it out there ;). I...
I may be a prisoner to my thoughts
Dragged up and down
Crying on command of bad memories and thoughts
Thoughts alone driving me to the edge
Only my power of will keeping my feet on the ground
But tonight I’m not alone<3